The stillness so unbearable
Almost silent except what was said
Echoing at the back of their minds
Repeating over and over again

Every word that ever hurt
Slowly sinking in
No one to tell them that
The words were wrong

Gradually like an anchor
Those words are buried in
Engraved on the surface
On the sea bed made of skin

The rain

The raindrops land softly
In her short brown hair
Like the tears falling down her face
They splash delicately on the grass

One droplet merges into another
And loses itself in the soil
Like the thoughts she so desperately tries to hide
In the garden of her mind


They’re busy around you
Talking to you
Desperately trying to distract you
To keep you calm

They think it’s working
That you’re not thinking about it
But really you are
It’s on the tip if your tongue

You watch as they put the mask on
Your mind trying to remember every move
As they put you to sleep you remember that breath
like its the last you’ll ever breathe

Next thing you know you’re sat up in bed
Surrounded by whiteness
Beds either side
And nurses rushing by

You wonder what would have happened
Had that breath been your last
Did dying feel the same
Only you never awake

The monopoly of life

It’s just a game
You’re just another character
Bouncing around a board that never ends
Until someone puts a stop to the play

We just go around
Picking up chance cards
And getting thrown around
Like an old abused dice

We dream of winning
But there is no winning this sad game
We play to the death
And leave it unfinished, unwon

Like pieces of a puzzle
Some get lost, broken and forgotten
But still we play on
In this puzzle known as life

I wonder

I wonder what it’s like to die
To know inside that you’re letting go
To breathe your last breath and close your eyes
To slip away from the pain inside

I wonder what it’s like to feel yourself going
No way to stop it
Would you feel fear?
Or accept it and let it take you?

I wonder what it’s like in those final minutes
When the people around you are dabbing their eyes
When you know exactly what their thinking
And then your heart stops and you no longer care

No longer do you need to worry about their feelings
Your mind is closed
Your breathings stopped
And you’re peaceful once more